Saturdays. It’s strange how I got so used to having someone together as we meet and attend service. We’re probably 3122.1 KM apart. Can’t wait to have you back soon!
Probably had the most amazing dream last night and looking forward to that day and the future. Sometimes, it just seems so real, and definitely gonna work towards it!
Just had a conversation via SMS, and somehow the reply was quite saddening. Wouldn’t we as humans look towards a time for reconciliation? Perhaps things has drifted apart since the days my grades took a plunge in the past and I’m probably one that’s still ‘isn’t good enough’.
enjoy seeing how late it is when i’m reading my articles or doing projects, i’m seeing you on the other side reading newspapers.
FaceTime, you’re just too awesome.
Thank you for today. Even though 30mins of bowling, it did the trick in making me release all that accumulated stress in school after all these while. I know it isn’t easy when it comes to asking me what’s on my mind, but you never settle for a ‘it’s alright /it doesn’t matter’ kind of answer. You push but yet at the same time gave me the space and time to collate my thoughts and share it out with you:’)
Remember the deal we had! But let’s not settle for a ‘try’ but ‘will’.
*and i could be heading for a holiday destination that i’ve been looking forward ever since NatGeo placed much of the focus on that country. Let me try seeing the northern light, the glacier, sled-dog, fresh seafood and not forgetting the nice scenery of the Alaska range.
thank you for being there all these while.. It has never been easy especially the times you’re in the army.. Although it’s now a all new phase for both of us, I know it’ll gonna be worthwhile! It really means a lot how you always make me smile and let me know i can depend on you. Happy Valentine’s Day Varian!
Having many thoughts on my mind but basically it still boils down to one thing - FAMILY.
I always wondered, if grandpa was around, would everything in my family be different? Perhaps it might, afterall at least Pa could have a role model to look towards on parenting and do it.
It pains me every day when i come home from school or a day’s worth to tiredness. Thinking that home is a place where i can find comfort through sharing my problems with my parents and siblings. But i don’t. Maybe none of us don’t. Everyone’s emotions can be disrupted based on one person.
It’s hard to explain it to people, even to your closest friends. i feel tired to tell them the problem that seem to be the same over the years. And every single night i just want to sleep the pain and burden away.
I never like having fluctuation of emotions. It’s just too draining..
I never would have expected drastic change from this person whom i could always share such family issues since 3 years ago. She prayed for my salvation. She was always keeping a look out on me previously. And then all these vanished, till now i still couldnt understand why a cousin to cousin r/s can be broken due to one person.
Grandmama, sometimes i just wish you’re still around. At least during those moments when i’m down, you somehow knew and will just hold on to my hand. It feels as though you were reassuring that everything’s gonna be alright.
it was the first time i saw grandma appearing in my dream last night and could still her talking to me vividly.. it just felt as though she never left.
Finally, i’ve graduated(:
it has been a roller coaster during these 3 years of poly. all those mugging days for meeting project deadlines to how my group will suddenly play counter strike in the midst of having a break. the multiple bus rides, the food in TP, the numerous jokes we once had. still remember going to TP on the first day, sitting at TCC feeling quite lost. and at that moment recalling how a group of us got rejected from joining the FOC camp even when we sign up online haha. and meeting my classmates for the first time. and up till the day before we officially graduated, we still kept in contact and went out to eat.
to all my lovely MP06 groupmates, it has definitely been an awesome experience just grouping with you guys. you all really made me felt as though it’s the dream team! even though many times we play a little more than we work, and can suddenly take thousand and one pictures non stop, and a little hot tempered here and there, but i still really love the special bond we have together(: sometimes we know each other so well we know each likes and dislikes!
to Jerene. i really cherish our friendship and really value you as my friend! and yes, we’re finally going to the same uni and faculty yet again. it has always been a pleasure being able to lend you my listening ear and would continue to! it will be another great 4 years in uni girl! it will be amazing(:
it’s now the next step. a new path and route to embark on.
today’s sermon really changed and opened up my mindset! i’ve never thought of seeing the bible this way and yes gonna see what Part2 will be like later! in life, there’s just so many choices to be made! and i’m glad to be given the freedom to choose. but decisions will led to consequences. i’ll choose to follow You.
Romans 12:2
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed be the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Came across this verse and really reminded me on following His path and ways and to continue to trust His plans. The pattern of this world changes, one day it might be a cool thing to do this and that, and another day a new trend pops out. Many times it involves what we have in our value system and our convictions, but still, i choose to follow and obey God’s words.
Easter’s just over a few days ago and just felt a breakthrough(: even though it was a little disappointing that some of my friends backed out last minute, but still, i believe God will choose another divine time for them to know Him! Serving in choir this Easter is just great! It’s been a long time since getting back to serve and definitely great to be part of Choir, supporting Pastors and worship team to pull down the anointing of God to the congregation(:
Felt a change in my mindset.. It’s interesting when i start to have faith, it really changes the way i sms people and being able to spread the faith out to my peers. And well, it’s not gonna stop here, gonna continue to do so(:
I love my life! even though God didnt promise me a smooth and sailing one, and that problems will just continue to come, I wont exchange it or anyone else’s. It’s really through all these situations that i know i can only say He is God. Only He can save us through all my internal struggles and mindsets and to lift it all up to Him. Shall continue to stand even stronger in my convictions, and not being stumbled by emotions.
