took a breather out from school work today and met up with Peijun for lunch after my NSC treatment. missed the times we talk like in the past and even though she knew things aren’t going for me right now, she was still there(: even though i’m still coping quite alright with the numerous assignments per week in school, things have not been great even though i deem them to be. it’s just that hollow feeling inside that heart that keeps getting bigger and i don’t understand why. it’s just so easy to think of the negative that easily. the problem is, i don’t know what’s bothering me too. Perhaps suppressing something and somehow it got lost in my memory. haha too much of watching Fringe for coming up with that conclusion. or perhaps the uncertainty of things that i began to see ever since i ended work, waiting for renovation of house and starting of school with MP and other modules. i just feel so hard to pick myself up this time round. i never felt so depressing seriously. and i never like uncertainties.  can’t find the right words to talk things out too. i need a different medium to express things. i need to take myself out of this negative mindset. i can’t just suppress all my feelings inside me if not one day i can see myself breaking down. such an unpleasant sight though.  just breathe. clear the mindset.  this is gonna be temporal. there’s definitely so much more that i should look forward to in life! can’t possibly be stuck in a circle and always keep myself turning in that small cycle of delusion. it’s gonna take some time but bit by bit, i’m gonna get back to my track. what’s more, i’m a child of God. He made me felt His presence whenever i was “emo-ing” on the bus ride home for the past few weeks. whenever the thought of being left out came into my head, He just made me realize there was someone who always and will always be there(:  need to bring that genuine smile back to my face(:

took a breather out from school work today and met up with Peijun for lunch after my NSC treatment. missed the times we talk like in the past and even though she knew things aren’t going for me right now, she was still there(:

even though i’m still coping quite alright with the numerous assignments per week in school, things have not been great even though i deem them to be. it’s just that hollow feeling inside that heart that keeps getting bigger and i don’t understand why. it’s just so easy to think of the negative that easily. the problem is, i don’t know what’s bothering me too. Perhaps suppressing something and somehow it got lost in my memory. haha too much of watching Fringe for coming up with that conclusion. or perhaps the uncertainty of things that i began to see ever since i ended work, waiting for renovation of house and starting of school with MP and other modules. i just feel so hard to pick myself up this time round. i never felt so depressing seriously. and i never like uncertainties. 

can’t find the right words to talk things out too. i need a different medium to express things. i need to take myself out of this negative mindset. i can’t just suppress all my feelings inside me if not one day i can see myself breaking down. such an unpleasant sight though. 

just breathe. clear the mindset. 

this is gonna be temporal. there’s definitely so much more that i should look forward to in life! can’t possibly be stuck in a circle and always keep myself turning in that small cycle of delusion. it’s gonna take some time but bit by bit, i’m gonna get back to my track. what’s more, i’m a child of God. He made me felt His presence whenever i was “emo-ing” on the bus ride home for the past few weeks. whenever the thought of being left out came into my head, He just made me realize there was someone who always and will always be there(: 

need to bring that genuine smile back to my face(:

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